So much is about to change and we are so excited. Knowing that McKenna is going to arrive in mere HOURS, many hours but it's only hours and not many days away any longer, is driving me crazy with anticipation and worry thought and every other emotion under the sun!!
At the same time emotionally, welcoming McKenna will be bittersweet for us. We miss Wyatt every single day and I have wondered how I'm going to feel postpartum. I'm sure I will be just fine but it doesn't stop the constant thoughts of worry and fear. I'm just writing this to be open and honest. Wyatt would have been 11 months old next week and thinking about McKenna finally being here puts me in the position of thinking how things would have been, again if it all had turned out differently. What would we be doing, how much would I have changed, even- what theme would we be planning his first birthday party.
Life goes on but we keep our memories and love alive for everyone around us whether they are still here on this earth or watching over us from above.
I will be admitted to the hospital tomorrow night and my Dr expects McKenna to arrive Tuesday at any time. We will definitely keep you all posted that's for sure :)
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