14 weeks! 14 WEEKS!!!

Oh man.. another week down and a billion and one to go!
Today was our doctors appointment and all looks great! She has one more appointment for me to make with a specialist just for some checks and then my second trimester screening within the next two weeks. We are really happy with how things are going but it is still hard to be truly excited. Both James and I had anxiety about our appointment today. Seperately we were afraid that there could have been something wrong this time around and we didn't talk about it with eachother till we were home and knew all was fantastic.

It's just so scary sometimes, and I know I will have a hard time the entire pregnancy just because I can't help thinking that ok, it's too good to be true when will this one be taken from me? I don't mean to feel this way and I sure don't dwell on it but there are moments where that's all that's running through my head. It really makes it hard to be excited but I really am happy about it all. It's a blessing and a miracle!

Ok here it goes- this week's status report :)

Total weight gain/loss: I didn't gain any weight this month! Woo hoo I'm pretty excited about this- but now I'm afraid next month will be like a 37 pound gain HAHAHA

Maternity clothes: I haven't needed to go shopping yet but I am showing much more I feel like I'm showing as much as I did at 6 months last time but I hear for most people you show faster with subsequent pregnancies... hum......

Stretch marks: nothing new

Best moment this wk: DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT!!

Miss anything: Again, sleeping through the night without needing to pee...

Movement: Praying for the next few weeks

Food cravings: There have been a few things that I just needed to have but once I had a taste of whatever it was I couldn't stand it anymore some stuff like bread, ice cream, breakfast burritos, a couple other things I can't quite remember but I will prob not have them again at least for a long long time... But one thing I'm really enjoying are my mexican hard candies- the stuff with the chili powder I'm addicted lol. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: No triggers really, a few smells irritate me at times but nothing has sent me running-

Symptoms: same-I have alittle bit of round ligament pain but right now it's mostly when I'm shifting around from laying down or getting up too quickly. I've been surprised how quickly I've been noticing some symptoms so much sooner than my first pregnancy. Even my lower back vertebrae are shifting around already and popping and that was at the end of my second trimester last time. It's not too bad but completely noticeable, so weird.

Have you started to show yet: Yup... I'll try and remember to take a picture tomorrow and see a side by side comparison

Gender: We will wait for one more appointment with Dr Prema and see if she can tell, then at some point we will schedule a 3D if we can't determine in her office

Labor signs: None at all, good thing!

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Back to both feelings. Good and bad days but I try really hard to be happier for the majority

Looking forward to: Boy or girl??? BOY OR GIRL!!!!!!!

WOO here we go week 13!!

AHHH alittle sigh of relief! Tomorrow (tuesday) begins my second trimester officially!! I have had alittle bit of a rough week here and there, lots of moments of fatigue and dizziness- I think alot of this had to do with the on and off of the extreme weather... BLAH but it seems that may be fading out soon I sure hope :)

A couple days ago marked one year since my Aunt Heather passed away and that was a difficult day for sure, lots of feelings and emotions come with days like that and it kind of put me in a position of worry for how I will feel come April when Wyatt's one year comes around and, God willing, there will be a brand new baby in my arms. I like to think I will be strong and just have fond memories of my short nearly 8 months of carrying my precious son- but time will tell and we will see :)

Tomorrow marks 13 weeks into this second pregnancy AND it marks our 2nd wedding anniversary! I'm so excited to celebrate 2 years of marriage. It's been an eventful 2 years that's deffinately for sure! I'm just excited to see where it is we are headed from here on out, be both have fantastic examples of love and lasting marriage with his parents having celebrated 37 years and my parents 28 years. It's just all exciting! Ok now I guess I'll get to my status update :)

Total weight gain/loss: I feel I'm still around the same place, my next appointment is next monday so I'll know for sure then. I feel like I gained a million pounds but if it's under 3 I'll be happy. I know alot of people don't gain much throughout but I'm a freak haha

Maternity clothes: Nothing is necessary yet :) Even though I feel like a monster whale my clothing still fit just great

Stretch marks: nothing new

Best moment this wk: Reaching my second trimester officially!!!

Miss anything: I miss feeling normal- but this may never return haha

Movement: I am hoping this comes quickly hehe- my FAVORTIE part of pregnancy, I miss it :'(

Food cravings: WATER WATER WATER oh man I've just been sooo thirsty, Water, crystal light, lemonade, Slurpees AHAHA oh and hard candy but that was more for helping the nausea dissapear, still no picnic

Anything making you queasy or sick: No triggers really, a few smells irritate me at times but nothing has sent me running-

Symptoms: I have alittle bit of round ligament pain but right now it's mostly when I'm shifting around from laying down or getting up too quickly. I've been surprised how quickly I've been noticing some symptoms so much sooner than my first pregnancy. Even my lower back vertebrae are shifting around already and popping and that was at the end of my second trimester last time. It's not too bad but completely noticeable, so weird.

Have you started to show yet: yeah- When I'm sitting down I feel like my flab makes me look 9 months pregnant already HAHA oh jeeze, I'll take a new picture next week at 14 weeks and compare to my 11 week picture and see if there's more of a difference just yet :)

Gender: Still waiting to see what decision we will make about how soon to find out HAHA, does that make sense? Technically you can determine gender at 14 weeks, I want to see how my dr feels about it and if she thinks better to wait till 20 weeks or she may not care at all if I go 3D again this time around- I'll know when I can find out after this next monday!!!!

Labor signs: None at all, good thing!

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Back to both feelings. I have really just wanted to lay in bed all day every day to get over the nausea but I still have to work and it's hard to not get short while I'm feeling horrible but it's only temporary

Looking forward to: KNOWING WHEN I CAN FIND OUT IF WE ARE HAVING A BOY OR GIRL!!!

Somethings you can't forget, some to look forward to

I have my good days and bad days, good moments and bad moments...

It's been just over 20 weeks since we lost our precious angel Wyatt. The time has both flown by so dang fast and crawled on as slowly as possible. When I stop to really think about my life and where I am and how things are going I have some good and bad moments. It's so hard to think that it could have been possible to have a 5 month old little boy with me right now and knowing that he is in Heaven is really difficult :( 

On the other hand I am unbelievably blessed and excited that I am 12 weeks pregnant with Wyatt's next sibling! The joy and sorrow all at once is overwhelming sometimes but for the most part things are going pretty well for us. Next week James and I will be celebrating our 2 year wedding anniversary and it's just thrilling to see how far we have come in a relativly short period of time.

August 24th was our 8th anniversary of the beginning of our relationship and just looking back on these last 8 years and seeing how much we have accomplished together is amazing. I really truly am blessed.

I have alittle less than 2 weeks until my next prenatal appointment and I am so excited like always to get in there, I don't know if Dr. Prema will do another ultrasound or just use the doppler thing to hear the baby's heart beat but either way I'm so excited!

ALSO I was thinking how grateful I was to really think about this time of year with Fall approaching and all- I will be able to go through my entire 2nd trimester and then some through the holidays!! You know how quickly the end of the year seems to go by because every few weeks something's going on? Something to look forward to and it just really comes so fast? HAHAH  YES!!! And I'm praying cool weathers comes to stay!  Between now and the end of the year there's so much going on all the while going in for all my appointments with the doctor- Sep 18th is our anniversary, October 17 is my dad's birthday, my birthday is Oct 19th and my mom's is Oct 22- my brother's birthday is Nov 11th, Thanksgiving will be around the corner, James' birthday is Christmas Eve, then there's Christmas day and New years! Those are just the big things to look forward too, there are parties and activities and planning all happening in the next few months in between and I couldn't be more excited.

How wonderful to have happy distractions! I'm just hoping that all continues to go smoothly and I pass all my tests for this pregnancy and that I don't get pre eclampsia again and that the non stress tests will pick up NO stress and I will not have to be put on bed rest and I will have this new healthy growing baby right when they are meant to be here with us! And in the next few weeks I'm hoping we can find out if we are having another boy or a baby girl! I just really can't wait!

I appreciate you all taking the time to read this and I'm sorry it started out alittle upsetting. I just can't help how I feel some days. I really miss my little boy but I know this is Heavenly Father's plan.

YAY end of the first trimester COMING MY WAY

Sigh of relief, this is my last week in my second round of being in my first trimester! LOL does that make sense to anyone else?? HAHA This time around has been very different. I've been more tired than before and more nauseous than before, things are moving and popping much faster than before... blah. This last week has again been alittle uneventful. Just work and NAUSEA lol did I mention, nausea? I'm hoping after this week it starts to go away or at least slow down just slightly. We'll see what happens. On with the survey- and here's to another week! AHH 12 weeks already?? Well, tomorrow but AHH! ok ok-

Total weight gain/loss: I feel like I'm in the same place but this status only changes after my appointments : /

Maternity clothes: New pants maybe in the next couple weeks, but so far still nothing is necessary to buy brand new

Stretch marks: nothing new

Best moment this wk: Eh, this last week was just another week, really I guess it was just about getting to 12 weeks finally haha. Imagine if I waited this long to tell you all I was pregnant I would have litterally gone crazy!! hahaha

Miss anything: I miss not feeling sick constantly :(

Movement: Nope, not yet but it's coming soon I just know it!

Food cravings: Nothing like the Taco Lita incident like last week so we will see how this next week goes. I have had to have hard candy with me all the time because of the nausea, I drink water constantly but that's been making it worse! AHH not the water, that's what I love the most right now- I'm sick of my ginger ale completely and I can only eat so many small meals. Please let the nausea go soon PLEASE. Ok I do have to be thankful that the nausea is all it is but AHHH

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing specific again, just I'm always queasy always always always.  

Symptoms: I have alittle bit of round ligament pain but right now it's mostly when I'm shifting around from laying down or getting up too quickly. I've been surprised how quickly I've been noticing some symptoms so much sooner than my first pregnancy. Even my lower back vertebrae are shifting around already and popping and that was at the end of my second trimester last time. It's not too bad but completely noticeable, so weird.

Have you started to show yet: Yeah I have, it's just alittle but I have to remember I still had alittle bit of a pregnancy shape when I got pregnant again but in the next couple weeks I feel it will be much more noticeable.

Gender: Waiting on the gender reveal party!

Labor signs: None at all, good thing!

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Back to both feelings. I have really just wanted to lay in bed all day every day to get over the nausea but I still have to work and it's hard to not get short while I'm feeling horrible but it's only temporary

Looking forward to: Completely exiting the first trimester!!! Praying for some relief and energy. Only 2 more weeks till our next appointment and I go in for more bloodwork and tests tomorrow so I'm also looking forward to those results :)

YAY to another week down! Almost 11 weeks

Another week down and "technically" 29 to go. This last week has been ok, pretty uneventful for me but still a week of being busy. James has been working yucky hours 12 midnight to about 1 still 6 days a week. It's been hard adjusting but it's only for another couple weeks or so. He's pretty fantastic doing this to save extra money for the time my dr takes me off work. Things are continuing well and of course I wish it has been another month rather than just one week since my last appointment.... oh the anxiety hahah

Total weight gain/loss: Same place since my appointment

Maternity clothes: I haven't bought anything new yet, pants soon just to be more comfy but nothing is necessary yet

Stretch marks: nothing new

Best moment this wk: Nothing stands out, it was just one of those weeks- it went by.

Miss anything: SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT.... at first it was just sleep, like normal- all night long. Now begins the waking up to pee ugh.... I did not miss this

Movement: Not yet but hopefully if like last time it's only short weeks away YAY

Food cravings: Ok, I've been eating my small meals to help with the nausea but this week I HAD to have taco lita. HAD TO! How did this happen I have never had "cravings" ever before so this was weird. Nothing else though- and I've spent more time this week actually not wanting to eat because everything made me feel sick. Most of the time I felt sick because I needed to eat but you know- catch 22.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing causing it- it just hits me.

Symptoms: NAUSEA STILL hopefully only a few more weeks. Also I'm sooo sleepy. I've been sleeping sooo much oh man- this last week I swear I spent half of it sleeping.

Have you started to show yet: I think now I'm starting to show, not alot from where I was but still some

Gender: Waiting on the gender reveal party!

Labor signs: None at all, good thing!

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I've been happier this week, but that's probably because of the excess amount of sleep ahhhhh sigh

Looking forward to: Exiting the first trimester!!! Praying for some ease in the second and showing more- I didn't like the middle of the road last time either, I still have alittle time but I hate where you just look fat not pregnant...